Post by damien ryder harrison on Jun 20, 2010 0:36:07 GMT -5
* damien ryder harrison ,
I hope the stars still spell out your name
nineteen, male, college student, techie kid, kaiden blake,
I hope the stars still spell out your name
nineteen, male, college student, techie kid, kaiden blake,
damien isn't a very social person, though he doesn't mean to be he often shies away from attention, unless it's positive attention, in which case he becomes cocky. He's quite an odd person though in all honesty. He craves attention but is scared to get it, he is actually quite the nervous one, he doesn't intend to be so quite in pucblic it's just the fact that not everyone was as smart as him and sometimes he said things and people didn't understand making him look like an idiot with people staring at him like he just spoke a foreign language, in these situations dame looks like an ass because then he proceeds to get up and walk away, he can't stand people looking at him because he had said something they didn't understand, he wasn't that smart, and he didn't intend to be, it was the fact that he was a good student in school and retaind the knowledge that he had learned, most people referred to him as a 'nerd' or a 'geek' he didn't really mind, it was common people's way of calling him smart, and he didn't mind that one bit, they were probably jealous that he was this smart. well. that's the way he liked to think about it, he had no room for pessimistic thoughts, he just didn't quite care what others thought of him, because quite honestly he was the one who counted most, and that was the honest truth.
He wasn't necessarily shy.. on purpose... but he knew that was a lie, he was a little shy when it came to talking to people, needless to say he won't be coming up to you first to start a conversation. he wasn't the topic starter by any means, but if you came up to him and started to talk he wouldn't be so shy as to not continue the conversation, he was actually quite the talker when you got him started, and he was nice. this kid, is just a sweetheart and teddy bear, if you want someone to talk to, he is the kid to go to, he doesn't mind long talks and crazy emotions, but he won't be the one to get emotional, he's not really big on the crying and showing all of his feelings to others, whether it be a guy thing or a damien thing he didn't know, he just didn't let his face show his emotions most of the time, well besides smiles and being nice, he definitely did that. But when it came to being upset or angry he kept a straight face, a poker face if you will.
Although mister damien here seems meek and sweet and nerdy he also has his cocky side, and this is when he thinks he knows a lot, in which he does. he is the tech kid. there were expected to be smart, and if you asked him right now he wouldn't deny it. Have you ever met a cocky nerd? well. here he is in the flesh. it doesn't matter to him whether or not people like that, it's almost a contradiction in itself for him to be so sweet and then so cocky, but don't be fooled, dame is a bundle of surprises, once you get to know him you will surely never be bored again. He loves working on anything technical and loves to fix things, it gives him a sense of power, like he was God or something, a little weird? yes. he knows. he's quite the person. When it comes to relationships and love, he doesn't even have the slightest idea, he has never really been interested in the whole relationship thing, he was always too busy with his computer games or intent on fixing this or that to notice if anyone liked him or not, much less to like anyone else he might have liked. as stated before, his emotions were almost nonexistent, but don't get the wrong idea, he isn't heartless, you just have to bring him out of his shell so he could show you how great of a person he really was, or at least he thought he was a semi-good person, even if he had his issues with being social and friendly, he could be friendly, it was just the fact that most people shied away from him becuase his personality didn't really scream "talk to me" all the time. he couldn't help that.
In all honesty he didn't know what his problem was, he cared about it yes, but not enough to actually change his whole disposition and whatnot, he would love to become more social but it took too much work and he had decided long ago that his life was fine just the way it was now, what was the use in changing it? He was too lazy to do anything about it, people seemed to like him just fine now, and some people even went the extra mile and talked to him first, even some girls, of course these things made him happy and whatnot, but it just wasn't enough to really try harder. it just made his head bigger, which was not what he needed. he was cocky, yet he was shy. he is... confused to say the least, but he doesn't really mind. Damien is just living his life the way he thinks best, taking the necessary steps to get through to the next day. he's just a laid back guy. with a good heart and a super shy body. what he really needs is a gentle push from those who care about him the most. poor kid.
HISTORY
damien didn't really grow up in a dysfunctional family nor did he grow up in a great home, it was just.. home for him. His mom and dad got married when they were young but you could tell they were in love, although they had an odd way of showing it. They liked to fight. alot. This of course didn't make Dame grow up wonderfully, but he learned to cope through it, you could tell that they were fighting to keep the marriage alive, and he told himself his even as a little boy. they fought, so what? so did every other couple out there right? they weren't perfect and damien wasn't expecting them to be, they were human after all and they made mistakes. that was quite normal. but still, did they really have to fight that much? Damien had learned at a young age to tune them out, he had learned to just sit there and not butt in because when he did butt in was when he got in the most trouble. Often times Damien would walk into his room with a roll of his eyes and turn his Television volume up so he couldn't hear them and ignore all the yelling and screaming. Other times he would sit on the edge of his bed and listen to them, he didn't really know why. At first he had wanted to listen to see if he could even fix the problem but he soon realized that there was no problem and they fought just to fight. it was sad to him that they couldn't get along, it was as if they had to fight to keep there love alive.
It was at this point that damien promised himself he would never love like that, he would be sweet. He would want to show his love in affection rather then fighting and when he did fight he probably wouldn't say much, it was also his parents that made him work on other things instead of focus on the opposite sex. he didn't feel like getting into it, it seemed as if he were 35 by the time he turned fifteen, he was always focusing on his work and always fixing things, never having the time to go out and party like most of the boys and girls his age, he never had the time to make friends or go out to make friends, here was where he got his labels that society had put on him, he was a nerd. and quite antisocial, but that did not mean he didn't want to have friends and most people got that impression when they met him, but those who stepped outside of the box and talked to him found out quickly that he was a sincerely nice person once you get to talking with him and get to know what he was into. It was also his parent's doing in that he was quiet all the time, not really wanting to venture out, why you guess? he personally thought that it was because he never got a say in anything his parents ever fought about, if he tried to fix things between them or solve the problem he would be yelled at, and that was something that no little seven year old boy really wanted from his parents. Don't get him wrong, his childhood wasn't hell, they were good people and he loved them very much, they just fought too much. but then again maybe he had blocked out his childhood for these reasons, he didn't want to think about how silent he really was as a kid, or how much they really had fought. yeah, that was probably it, he never really remembered a time where his parents weren't yelling at each other over an amount of time, it was the only way they could function.
Damien grew up and he never really grew out of his quiet stage, although people were beginning to talk to him more it really didn't mean that he was coming out of his shell, he became shy because it had been so long since he had made any friends, they always had to come up to him to start anything at all, most people became frustrated with him because of this, and he couldn't really do anything about it, this was the reason that he didn't have many friends to this day. they didn't want to put up with the way he was, but if they were genuine they would realize that he was actually quite a lively person, with many stories to tell, you could see his face just light up when he told something dear to him. Love was always a difficult subject for him in highschool, honestly he's quite glad it's over, that way he doesn't feel the pressure to talk to girls and make something of himself, now he could let them come up to him, it was so much easier that way, besides, he wasn't that interested to begin with, not in highschool at least, he still wasn't that interested, however he did want to know what a 'crush' felt like. not only that but he is still a virgin, and that wasn't something that all the guys here on tour would talk about, in fact, they would probably make fun of him relentlessly for it, but then again, he would probably never tell that to any of them, so it wouldn't matter anyway. He's just the nerdy techie kid whose shy demeaner scares away everyone, where's the harm in that? poor damien.
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